Many people are participating in the internet social site tradition (yes, it IS a tradition) of posting every day what they are thankful for this month. I always enjoy this tradition because it makes me happy to see that some of the people that seem soulless and uncaring do have a bit of depth to them after all. Okay, maybe that’s a little hyperbolic, but it is nice to not feel like the only person to “get too deep” sometimes. I’ve joined in the tradition because I like outwardly expressing positive things about the world around me. So here are my first twenty. Enjoy:
Day 1: I’m thankful for the unconditional love of my Brother.
Day 2: I am thankful that my dog is always so happy to see me.
Day 3: I am thankful that the heater in my car works.
Day 4: I am thankful to have a base of my own. A place I can paint the walls green and black. A place that certainly feels like home.
Day 5: I am thankful that my partner loves to cook. I mean really loves to cook.
Day 6: I am thankful for complete silence.
Day 7: I am thankful for good conversation that makes me feel as if I’ve learned something.
Day 8: I am thankful for finding someone who has wanted to spend the last 16 years of their life with me.
Day 9: I’m thankful for the beauty that surrounds me.
Day 10: Snow days. I love them. Some people might complain and whine and moan, but here, in Oklahoma, snow days are magical. When it snows everything stops. You can go outside at 3 in the morning and it’s like a whole different planet. The smells, the sounds, the air itself is different. Renewing. Fresh. Not only that, but in Oklahoma, snow almost always guarantees at least one day off if not more. The more it snows, the more days off you’re likely to get. So this winter I sing, Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.
Day 11: I am thankful for people that support me. Sometimes they are friends, sometimes just people you met one time, sometimes, you’ve never met them. Yet, for some reason they bother to support you in one way or another. Sometimes it’s as simple as posting a hug on a bad day or “liking” a post. Sometimes it’s more tangible support, like helping you pay your bills by paying you for whatever it is you do. Sometimes it’s being that person that listens. Sometimes it’s being that person that makes you laugh. Sometimes it’s as simple and complex as saying “I love you”.
Day 12: I am thankful for the sunshine. Seriously. I love the sunshine. I love sitting outside and having the sun warm my back. I love the way it feels when you lay down on the carpet in front of a sliding glass door and the sun beams in and you fall asleep. Yes, I still do this. Just because I’m not 5 doesn’t make it weird. It’s weird that people stop doing things they enjoy because someone else told them it was weird. The winter can sometimes be really hard for me when it’s a winter with little or no real sunshine. So I am very thankful for the sunny November this year. I’m totally enjoying it! Once it goes away it better snow though.
Day 13: I’m thankful for the written or typed word. I suck at social activity. Especially conversation. I tend to voice things as they come to me. I have trouble NOT gearing the conversation to me. The written word allows me time to read over my conversation and articulate more accurately my thoughts and feelings. I absolutely love writing letters to people. Unfortunately, most people hate reading letters. I used to write T letters that would make small books before she moved here. She would write me back and I was always so excited to get her letters. So, yeah, I’m totally thankful we have a written language.
Day 14: Pants. OMG…I can’t tell you how happy I am that I can wear pants and that pants exist at all. Especially jeans. I feel so uncomfortable in a garment that is just open to the world. I realize now that it has more to do with my sensory issues, than anything else. The “hugging” feeling of security I get from pants isn’t there if there isn’t anything “hugging” your body. Winter is even better because I get dual layers. I wear long underwear under my pants as soon as it drops to the 60′s. So double pants! Totally thankful for pants.
Day 15: I am thankful for cake. I used to wonder why everyone was so upset in France when Marie Antoinette said “let them eat cake”. I thought that was a great idea!!!! Then I studied history. They didn’t have bread, much less cake. Poor bastards. I have cake! Cake from La Baguette. It’s delicious. I also have a friend and co-worker that makes the best cake in the whole world and often makes me one. A whole freaking cake!!!! Cake is my favorite food. If I was stranded on an island and I could only have ingredients for one food to make, I would hope it was cake.
Day 16: I am thankful for Restaurants. It’s cool that we, as a society, have decided to have these things. It’s cool that there are people that love to cook. It’s so freaking nice that on those days that you are utterly exhausted, there is a place you can go and eat and not have a mess to clean up afterwards. I do NOT take this for granted. Ever. So I am thankful for all the places that exist that I can go and get a good meal and all the people that make up those places. Thank you for ensuring that my belly is always full.
Day 17: I am thankful for Experience. As I get older, experience is something I rely on. It is also something that has helped others understand me and some of my social quirks. As you experience more, you learn more. It can even teach you that you aren’t nearly as weird as the people in that small town of 5,000 thought you were. You might be unique, but far from far out there weird. It can also help you deal and help you help others deal. Even though sometimes experience can be painful, it never fails to make you stronger and more able to understand others.
Day 18: I am thankful for Music. I freaking love music. I always have. My Mom used to get so annoyed with me always wanting to play music in the car or in my room or anywhere I went. Music fills my imagination. It makes the rest of the world disappear. It is fun, meditative, a way to get my frustrations out, a way to get “in the mood”, or just a soundtrack to whatever I’m doing. It defines certain moments in my life. I’m glad there are people passionate enough about making it that they fight the hard fight to get it out there. They bare their souls for us. It’s pretty remarkable.
Day 19: I am thankful for Guitar solos. I know, I said music for day 18, but guitar solos are a whole ‘nother thing. There’s something about a great guitar solo that can bring me to tears. It feels like my soul is being lifted and for that brief glorious moment, I can only feel all that is good and right and perfect. It’s why I love metal music so much. Metal = best guitar solos EVER. If I could only save one instrument in the world it would be the electric guitar.
Day 20: I am thankful for Courage. I’m so thankful that I don’t walk around everyday worrying about the end of the world. I don’t possess that crippling fear so many of the people I am surrounded by do. Instead, I am filled with Courage to only see a positive future. Courage to be myself. Courage to do the things I want. Courage to live my life. Courage to not fear my fellow man. Courage to love. Courage to believe. Courage to dream.
And there you have it. There’s 10 days left. I’ll update. Be safe this holiday.